SYNCHRONICITY: Shortly after I published this, I came across this quote:
Sure sign of spiritual growth: When you start to feel out of place, you reconnect to your inner world. Oh, yeah.
I had a realization the other night in the shower (apparently a very commonplace location for epiphanies, solutions, and life changers). It was over something rather simple–I was going to a wine tasting and planning on contributing a sparkling wine to what was sure to be a strong lineup of malbecs. And I was doubting my choice: no one’s ever brought sparkling wine to one of these; it wasn’t all the prescribed grapes; maybe I should get a torrontes instead.
And I realized that this was all fear talking–fear of what people would say, what they’d think of me for bending the rules (it’s a meetup group, for chrissake! but it’s amazing how indoctrinated we are to others’ opinions of us)–how it was something I wanted to try (I love sparkling wine) but didn’t know if others would like it. Basically, it was me venturing outside of my comfort zone of doing the tried and true. (Like I said, it wasn’t an earth-shaking decision facing me.)
So in this little moment, I pinpointed for myself that when I’m feeling that squirmy, don’t know if I should, self-doubt feeling, that means I’m (1) worried more about other people’s reactions than my opinions and (2) going outside of my comfort zone. And that it’s good. And it’s OK to feel that, because it signals to me that I’m going to take a risk of one size or another.
And so I took my choice. And the bottle was greeted with open arms (well, with someone opening the bottle immediately), presented as a great way to start the afternoon’s tasting, and was praised highly. People who don’t like sparkling wines liked this one. It had a rich, dry taste–and good bubbles! The bottle was emptied quickly–the first one of the evening to be finished off.
And I liked it so much I bought another bottle to keep on hand.
[So what was the bottle? An Argentinean: Trapiche Extra Brut--a blend of chardonnay, semillon, and malbec (yes malbec--that's what prompted me to try it, the red grapes in a sparkling white wine--and my bet is that's what gives the wine its full flavor). I paid $14.99, yes $14.99, for the bottle.]